Thursday, October 18
and so, the PRCP postings are out.
I must say i was significantly devastated. Not only did i not get ANY of my choices, i did'nt get ICU. everyone who knows me well, knows how much i've been hoping to get into the ICU. I know its only going to be for 3 months, but i really was hoping so much to get it. I dont know why, but it just brought me to tears. Something trivial to cry for i agree but what if its something you've always wanted 3 years ago? Something you've worked so hard for, 3 years. ICU was my 2nd choice, and why? Because i thought people would think i'm overambitious, thinking of wanting to do ICU for my PRCP. And some time later, I asked for a change of choices and that was to make ICU my 1st choice, however i was told from school and NUH that it would'nt matter because as long as there was a specialized discipline in any of our choices, we'd have to undergo interviews. And NOW, they tell me they're assessing students using a different method thus, those who made their first choices as ICU, would have most likely gotten it.
For those who are reading this, and are wondering what is PRCP. It stands for Pre-Registration Consolidation Practice whereby we're given 3 months to consolidate whatever we have learnt in 3 years and we'll be assessed based on a whole list of criterias and skills to be competent with and to complete basically a really long checklist. And it is necessary to pass it in order to get our license to practice as a Staff Nurse, in short, "No Pass equates to No License, No Job and No Diploma. I hope, Andy allows me to swap to ICU. Any ICU and i'd be glad. Really, but like the old saying goes, LIFE DOES'NT ALWAYS GO OUR WAY, maybe i'm not meant to be there now. Maybe God has a plan for me. Like they Say, everything happens for a reason. So, thing is, i'm currently posted to an 8 bedder Gerontology(Elderly) Ward. And mind you its not all slow and boring in the Gerontology ward, it IS BUSY BUSY BUSY. But hey, its not bout being busy that turns me off or scares me, its the area of interest. I'm not saying i DISLIKE Gerontology, its just my area of interest has ALWAYS been caring for the critically ill, both OLD&YOUNG.
I remember my Assignment i did for WPD(Work&Professional Development) and it was to write a Resume. In my resume, i remember stating down the work experiences we already had(assuming we had already graduated) and the first year of work in NUH happened to be in a Gerontology Ward. And let me quote what i had written regarding my "experience" there and its possible contributions to the position i was applying for(ICU nurse in TTSH)
So i said; I have gained valuable skills being a pillar of support for relatives, assisting them with their needs, handling complaints out of their anxiety and regular patient care related discussions and updates with them.
And the reason why i want to be an ICU nurse?
"I have an endless drive for compassion for caring for the ill and i constantly strive for excellence, professionalism and commitment whilst delivering my nursing care. I enjoy the challenge of working in a fast paced and stressful environment which would DEFINITELY make the Critical Care setting very suitable for me. I am also committed to providing high standards of Nursing Care to the Critically ill and injured and efficiently meet or assist in meeting the physical, psychological, emotional and spirtitual needs of my patients. And lastly, i emphasized, I am solely driven by my passion to specialize in the Intensive Care Unit if given the opportunity"
Come on NUH! Please give me the ICU posting!
And by the way, whatever i had mentioned above, its essential for you all to note that i meant it, each and every word. No one has any goddam idea how much i want this and how much i'm into this. I told you i fell in love with Nursing....
impulsively and honestly,
yours truly
4:36 PM
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