Friday, February 16
you know what,
its bad enough you "have your reasons" for not meeting me today
and,
when i msg you and all, you dont bother replying
and it pissess me off coz its like 2 days in a freaking row its happening,
when i'm at home, and you're having a ball of a time,
and you cant even just take 1 minute,
just 1 MINUTE, to reply my message.
IF i dont mean this much to you
TELL ME, because, i dont want to be like an idiot, msging you, and waiting for nothing
OR, having you call me back like 40 minutes later, when i call and when you say you'll call back
and then later you msg me saying, "i think you sleep already"
OF COURSE i'll be goddam asleep, what the hell man, 40 minutes,
and moreover it was 2 AM in the morning.
did you think i was gonna wait for you my whole life?
i'm sorry, i think this is by far the thing that's always getting me damn fcuking pissed.
its not like its the first time, and always after you do this
you say you're sorry, you're busy and all that
i mean i'm not asking you to talk to me, the whole time you're out.
at least have the decency to NOT make me wait 3 hours for a single reply
i reckon i do that when i club without you.
SO why cant you just do the same for me ???
oh yeah, i forgot..
you are busy.
ya, how bout what I think okay ?
i think its because i dont matter very much to you
its OKAY, coz i'm not the one you wanted in the first place.
pardon me for being all angry and all, yeah i think i have the right to be angry.
its my blog, and i think i have the right to say what i feel in any case, to make me feel better
since you're very much NOT around to do so.
SO, i hope you have a blast, at eski and in m'sia tomorrow
coz frankly speaking, i dont have much energy anymore,
i was thinking i could talk to you tonight before you go to m'sia
but i guess, you dont think the way i do.
you dont feel the way i do
and its time i learn that.
Now you see why i HATE being so emotionally attached to you
and how much i HATE being so dependent on you?
its time i stop
its time i stop
and if i do cry, its not because i'm sad.
i'm just this pissed to actually be crying.
impulsively and honestly,
yours truly
10:16 PM
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