Saturday, February 17
i've learnt there's a limit to how much i can take.
and you're simply doing what you do best, doing nothing at all
to make things better. to make me feel better.
you never called, to see if i was alright, you just did nothing.
and i am tired. really really tired.
so go ahead, tell the world of how sensitive a person i am
but, keep in mind your own sensitivities.
i just cant take the fact that you DARE, tell me
that you were "busy having FUN" that's why you could'nt contact me
wow, so even in your moments of "busying having fun" you could'nt even spare just one minute.
or even a few seconds to msg me.
dont tell me you're gonna miss me coz if you did, you'd spend some time with me
or at least call me.
but you dont.
and then dont tell me you love me.
and dont expect me to prioritize my friends or fun over you anymore
because everyone knows i prioritize YOU above everyone else.
but you just dont work the way i think.
so i'll spend these 2 days, trying to figure out what kind of person you are in a r/s
then i'll give what you give.
i SWEAR, in my entire 18 years of life, i've never felt so unappreciated
and its not a misunderstanding, its downright your fault.
dont blame it on the possibility of miscommunication or in other words term it a "misunderstanding"
i was angry and Am STILL angry.
i just dont see how you can treat me like that.
when I club, i dont make you wait 2-3 hours for a reply
and more over, i was worried, and true enough you got drunk
blabbered rubbish on the phone,
cant tell if its your girlfriend on the line.
you had to ask me "who is this" when i called your phone.
and tell the whole world "she's not saying anything" and pass the phone to someone else.
i wished i could just scream at you, but all i did was cry.
i'm just shocked at what you do.
and even after all that, you would'nt even call,
but leave me msges saying you're on your way to m'sia
i'm just disappointed.
but you know what
i dont blame you sometimes.
coz its my fault for being so damn dependent on you,
thinking you'll always be there for me
its my fault for being overly emotionally attached to you..
i asked for all this, myself
and i'm gonna change all that
i'm gonna change all that.
why the fuck am i still crying in the goddam morning!!?!?!?!
oh yeah, i forgot,
i love using this "make me feel better" liner
i understand, coz you never wanted to be with me in the first place
hah, "fat&ugly i'd never want to be with her"
ohh okay, assuming you did'nt use the first two words..
"i'd never want to be with her".
yeah that's good enough.
see, i've stopped crying.
so i can face civilisation again today.
goodbye world.
and have fun theinesh.
impulsively and honestly,
yours truly
9:43 AM
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