Sunday, January 7
i am almost desperate.
i dont know,
what to do, anymore.
i dont know who to turn to anymore.
so i figured. after a month, i'd blog.
seriously, no one would have a clue,
to how heavy hearted i feel right now.
its like, everything just comes crashing in on me.
this is just a start, to a whole lot of problems
a whole lot of mess i've put myself through.
and with the final exams coming in, i seriously dont need this
i want to bring myself back to focussing
its time i realize that brooding over what happened is'nt going to help
and that i ought to face, what's going to come my way.
and whether i like it or not, i'll have to face it alone.
i guess i should have known better but, people make mistakes right ?
i wish i could forsee whatever i am about to go through and start making changes.
Maybe i just need a break, from all this
the bangkok trip sounds like a good one.
even that too, i'd be faced with problems.
i dont know how i'm gonna get out of all this.
like i said, the problems have yet to start.
if i could fall into a deep sleep and forget everything, i'd choose to do so.
even you are not helping me very much.
and so, i have no choice to turn to an old friend.
whom i'll prolly pour my heart out to, later when we meet.
tell me, what should i do ?
today, i'm heading to church.
its the only hope i have left.
impulsively and honestly,
yours truly
1:39 PM
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