Thursday, November 2
i'm sorry,
but i just happened to read your blog after such a long while.
and i found this.
i hope you dont sue me for copyright infringement or something. lol
but it brought me tears.
not because of you,
but because the past 2 months, for me, was hell.
i made a wrong decision and i wonder to myself.
here's what i read, dated soo long ago(17th Oct), but heck.
i believe it was a reply to what i had said.
" i get wad u mean,i know wad u mean,and i get the message clearly,even if i tried harder now it wont make a diff,even if i did in the past,it wldnt have made any diff,lets put it this way,u dunt know jack abt me,my inner feelings and stuff,the real alex,wad makes me tick and stuff,and neither do i know anything abt you,but and i say but,i know enuff to know that i want and i need somone like you,personality,character,n stuff u wanted out of a r/s,uve set the standard,its a pretty high one,but i can and i will reach it no matter wad it takes,so...to you,from me,i guess this is goodbye,the past 2mths was fun,it was a learning experience for me,learnt things abt myself that i never knew abt,for that i thank you,the song that i wrote for you,is gonna be made into a proper song soon,soo yeah,its redundant,but its got meaning,u had me at hello,and there will always be a place in my heart for you "
i'm not asking you to come back.
i just want to apologize for hurting you, all this while.
because i was 18 and confused
and you just came into my life at an absolutely wrong timing.
when i was in love with someone i thought would love me.
and i only have myself to blame
because like what someone said to me.
"you asked for it clare"
and once again, Alex.
i feel like i owe you this and that is
i'm really sorry.
i've known you for like 6 years now
though we only got closer this year
so i hope we're still friends.
please take care during your recourse.
and if there's anything, if you need someone
keep me in mind yeah.
impulsively and honestly,
yours truly
11:45 PM
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