Friday, October 6
this pain, i've only brought upon myself.
to let you hurt me, over and over again.
but i'm learning, its obvious.
it'll be painful letting go, but loving you,
is'nt good for the heart.
for when i gave my heart, you did nothing
but broke it. again and again.
its alright, i dont deserve you.
they always say, be with the ones that love you the most.
but i have hereby concluded that to be solely inaccurate, to me at least.
but i think, being with the ones that loved you first, before you did,
would do the heart and health good.
but then again,
i'm so exhausted from trying and crying for the moment
so much so that it freaks me out.
especially after you.
all we humans ever do, is try to get there.
forgive me, for the sudden emotions
but i think i'm starting to give up on the whole L.O.V.E thing
anyway,
the KL trip..has made me learn alot really
i've learnt to appreciate the things and people around me more.
like how i miss my home and my family.
mommy was so sweet..
she cooked my favourite lotus root soup today for lunch
and msged me : lotus root soup in the pot in kitchen.
so sweet. i love you mommy !
impulsively and honestly,
yours truly
1:39 PM
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