Monday, September 11
woke up at 9am,
its funny because i slept at like nearly 3am ?
i've thought about many things.
the heart is'nt as broken as before.
less jaded would be appropriate.
and then, realizations tend to take place.
in this state of mind.
with sappy love songs once again to go with it.
it just gets you in the feel or mood to think.
i thought about what i really really really really wanted.
as in, i thought really about the future.
and its then i realized..
and that is being with YOU.
what you said was right.
without you, i was screwing up my life, big time.
i was'nt sure if what i was doing was right
because all the while,
you had always put my life on track.
my grades was good.
you've been've there if you could.
gave the best advices. like a good friend would
and..you were always right.
you taught me to think for the future, not only now
you're still ensuring my academic progress.
you're the only one that's giving me lots of support in my career path.
at least you're the only one that understands how much i enjoy nursing
and how tough it actually is
you're right.
i did'nt graduate with wonderful grades at O Levels.
and i was working real hard at year 1 to get this far.
and i should'nt be throwing everything down the drain right now.
i'm gonna work doubly hard, next semester.
2 more semesters, i keep telling myself.
i'll work hard, give it my best shot like back in year 1.
i wont let anything screw it up.
people say to people, i will catch you when you fall.
cliche but..
you never said it to me.
not even once in life.
but right now, when actions mean more than words to me.
you have proven that, cliches are'nt just what they are.
you braced my fall.
and you're making sure that i go back on track.
life before all this.
and i cannot thank you even more
or how to make it all up to you.
but i wont disappoint you.
i'd make a few sacrifices.
you know my dreams.
you know what i plan to do in life.
you know everything.
here's a breakdown for all of you that don't know.
yes, i am a person with plans and dreams.
2007- Driving License !!
2008- Graduate
2011- Finish Serving bond at 23 years old.
2014/2015- Degree in Nursing/Advanced Dip.
- Get Married at 26/27 years old.
2018- ICU nurse(pending, still contemplating)
2026- Nurse Manager by 38 years old.
seems almost impossible.
but i know, you will always be there.
and you know i'll be around. for good.
Results out on the 15th
i'm bracing for the WORST.
but i deserve every grade i get.
but god should pity me.
my life was in a mess.
THEN.
impulsively and honestly,
yours truly
9:36 AM
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