Monday, September 4
i woke up this morning,
crying, crying crying crying crying crying crying
with the feeling like i've been slapped right in the face.
i've been FUCKING stupid.
when people were trying to warn me.
i ignored their warnings.
i've hurt people in the process of my stupidity,
thinking, that i am right, and that things will go smoothly.
to those,
whom i've hurt, whom i've ignored
especially for a few people.
to you,
for not allowing you to talk and explain yourself,
for me not listening to you.
for me not trusting or believing in what you said.
for making you feel like a total idiot.
trust me,
i now know how it feels altogether
maybe its called retribution.
but, for all that, i am sorry..
its just that i feel so so stupid right now
i hope you will forgive me.
i know you're reading this.
i'd treasure you more,i promise.
now,
i'm just left feeling like this.
wondering what i should do.
when the heart is already broken.
and the mind has given up.
because it has been enough pain.
to a few people, whom i cannot name.
you know who you are.
i am sorry. i really am.
mummy i wish you were here.
you're the only one whom i can turn to now..
and you were there..
i love you mummy.
i'll love you the most.
mmmmmmmmmmmuaccckkkkkkkkks
heh
impulsively and honestly,
yours truly
9:10 AM
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