Tuesday, September 19
i was just thinking,
if, the one you loved, and still love,
tells you, he/she would'nt hurt you the way he/she did again.
even though he/she has done it countless times.
would you believe him/her ?
how certain can you be that it would'nt happen again ?
even if he/she says, it would'nt happen again ?
or would'nt hurt you or treat you badd again.
actually, it depends on the extent of the wrong-doing.
but, a part of me, does'nt want this.
a part of me has this strong feeling things would go back to the way they were.
and i dont want that to happen.
sure we had our good times and all.
but am i up for all that again ?
i dont know,if people will really change, when they say they would.
sighh..this whole thing, is putting me in such a difficult spot..so much so that
i'm feeling like getting back together or even getting attached is not a very good idea.
mind you, i am still very afraid, and very much jaded after a whole series of heartbreak.
its like i dont know where to start, anymore.
i dont know what to do anymore.
sometimes its scary but i find like i dont know who i love anymore
i just want the best for myself, for now, and for the future.
call it selfish, but, i call it being safe.
actually, ahhh..nvm.
impulsively and honestly,
yours truly
2:45 AM
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