Thursday, September 14
funny,
i spent the past 30 minutes,
looking at my Anatomy and Physiology Textbook. AKA Martini.
and i realized how much i've forgotten.
oh myy..time really does fly,
just seen the new timetable for the nxt semester.
its great.
for once
i dont end school at 6 on any of the days!
weeeeee..
means more time to sleep and study and revise.
yes i do aim to get back my 3.5 GPA if possible.
i'm gonna concentrate and study real hard.
anyone with me ?
somehow,
the feeling of being down and out, comes every once in a while.
i try to make all of this stop.
but thing is, the pain never stops, it merely subsides
and life, always makes more.
somehow, you seem to be slowly fading away into being simply memories.
its nice that you were around at the right time
but you're slowly fading,
you're a facade i dont wish to remember
but for a cynosure i'd take.
i'll remember what you put me through
and remember never to put myself through it again.
but you still mean something, and always will.
i thank a special friend
for being my mentor, my strength, my help, my everything.
though at times your 'wake me up' sessions were harsh on the heart
and has caused me to cry.
i appreciate it.
i dont know how else i can do the same for you.
but i know what exactly you want and somehow,
i always try my best to be around for you.
you always say i try my best to be around for everyone.
but you know, for you, i always try a little bit harder.
because you hold that priviledge,
which no one else will receive.
i thank you for making me laugh, for my smile you've built.
for never failing to cheer me up despite my crankiness and whines.
for supporting me through this whole nursing decision thing.
even when my parents were'nt exactly supportive.
i thank you for the countless advices, till now
they're as effective as ever.
above all.
you know me best. you know who i really am
you have faith in me.
you know what i love, what i want.
you've seen the best and worst of me.
and i'll always want to be the only one that can make you smile in return.
i wont be fickle minded.
i wont let you down again.
i'll make the necessary sacrifices.
you know i wont.
i'm sleeeepy baby.
nights everryonnnneee..
impulsively and honestly,
yours truly
12:03 AM
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