Wednesday, August 16
soul-searching.
what do you do,
when you're caught in this dilemma.
which would you, choose
1. the one who loves you, but you know you would'nt ever be happy with ?
2. wait for the one you love, whom you know you cant live without, but might never know if anything might happen?
3. the one who loves you, will do almost anything for you, but you do not feel one bit the same way at all?
a toughie huhh.
my heart, says number 2.
my mind says, number 3.
my heart says number 2.
my heart says number 2
but then again, the world does'nt care.
the truth hurts,
and being in denial is always addictive.
that way, you can barely feel the torment.
and you'd tell yourself, over and over
time will tell all things.
but time has past.
nothing has been revealed.
nothing has been proven.
i still find myself, hanging by a broken thread.
contemplating decisions after decisions.
trying to figure and find a way out
every trash hole which i'd somehow come to know
i had put myself into.
but i like the idea of this pain
its like a cynosure
to how much i can bear,
how much more before i'd break.
i ought to be chary to the obvious.
mixed signals seem to be your best friend now
and on this receiving end
all i can do, now
is watch and wait.
but now all i cant help but do,
is to drift away. Complicating but its true.
Sometimes, complexity conceals the imperfections
And then, i'd always think
it must be beneficial.
if i were to abstain from this whole wreath of feelings.
because, i've seen this a hundred times
the obvious is the obvious.
and that is,
you dont feel the way that i do.
but then again..
love always prevails.
and its back to the beginning.
where i'm just watching and waiting.
but this time, i'm a hundred miles from where you are.
i dont want you to know, how i feel anymore.
till the day, you walk back that distance
you will find out. i want you to find out.
but for now,
i'm watching and waiting.
without you knowing.
and i'm gonna stand a hundred miles from where you're standing.
till the day you bridge the distance.
i've said enough
i've done enough
i've pushed enough.
i'm just standing, once again, a hundred miles from where you're standing.
impulsively and honestly,
yours truly
9:07 PM
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