Sunday, August 6
my birthday during the day,
was great.
thanks girls,
for the lovely prezzies.
the 6 stalks of roses, the butterfly earrings and the very kinky mug.haha
the night was perfect until i got drunk.
which i so do not wish to talk about.
i feel like shit, getting myself that drunk.
and i know the reason why.
and that's because i took less than 3 minutes to finish ALL my drinks.
at least that was'nt my usual self.
i'm so pissed with myself, so much so i that i think i ought to hate myself.
but then again,
someone said its good that i experienced it.
at least i knew how it felt.
sort of like a deterrence kinda thing
lesson learnt : never gonna get myself that drunk again.
may be clubbing again next saturday
with people. DUH.
i've been thinking,
would you go for
1. Stability or
2. Uncertainity?
i think the answer is obvious.
i've been thinking alot lately.
and i'm definitely not getting my answers.
answers that i need,
that i deserve to know.
i'm 18,
besides the stupid blunder of being drunk.
i ought to be able to discern the best i need
at least all i'm trying is to protect myself.
but
if your heart's not in it for realplease dont try to fake what you dont feelif the love's already goneits not fair to lead me oncoz i will give the whole world for youanything you ask of me i'd dobut i wont ask you to stayi'd rather walk away.if your heart's not in it.i have given my all.the tears, the hugs, the kisses, the laughters,the shoulder, the listening eari have tried my utmost best,to make you happyto let you know the obviousbut it seems like you're not appreciating anything, i doand its bringing me downso much so that i feel so very stupid. i feel like an idiot.but you know most of the timesi try to understand. i really do.but that tooyou dont appreciate.sigh.one day, some day, i will..you know, everyone knows,i will.for you i will.would i still love you in the morning?
i say,
forever and ever babe. (:
impulsively and honestly,
yours truly
7:53 PM
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