Thursday, August 24
have you come to a point in time
or at least a point in life
where by,
you're not exactly sure of anything,
you're not sure of what you're doing
you dont know what you actually WANT to do.
you're not sure if what you are doing is right
you cant seem to make decisions.
because most decisions turn out to be well,
not exactly the best made decisions.
have you felt like you dont want to make decisions.
you just dont want to have to THINK about making decisions
you dont want to be pressured to do anything.
well, at least you try to avoid doing anything.
you just dont want to have thoughts or to process any
and just stone and watch the world go by for as long as possible.
and just let nature take its course
and somehow, hope for the best ?
and somehow, you know that you've lost all hope
and you're on the verge of giving up.
you wont exactly shed a tear.
but you're just tired, really tired.
of everything, anything, and almost everyone ?
you're just tired of trying. tired to even attempt to try.
you dont want anything, you dont want or need anyone
you just want to be alone.
or maybe you just wish you'd die.
you know what, this is exactly what i'm feeling now.
its been too long, its breaking me.
i dont like this feeling. it scares me.
i mean, i really try to be happy.
do things, which could make me happy
i really do try.
but it seems like it is'nt enough.
because at the end of the day
you know you're lying to yourself, and to others.
this is getting trashy.
someone shoot me or something
impulsively and honestly,
yours truly
10:55 AM
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