Friday, August 18
1.5 more years, and i'm out, of this hell.
i'd find a better place.
a better life.
ugghhh !!
back to something else..
this feeling's scaring me
its supposed to be good.
but i'm so scared.
why does it seem like i'm starting to give up?
maybe its because i've lost all hope
which is due to the fact that i'm not getting much hope either.
you dont speak a word, i'm uncertain.
i woke up feeling groggy and all
drowned myself in sad sorrowful chinese love songs.
and there was this part regarding
"giving up when it gets too difficult"
and i thought to myself ,
how much you mean to me, its been a while,
you've never noticed it, but its alright
for all i know right now is that,
i cant push you away just like that,
i cant pretend like you dont exist anymore
i cant pretend like i dont feel for you.
and i cant deny the truth that,
i dont want to lose you.
not for now, not for anytime. never.
impulsively and honestly,
yours truly
2:46 PM
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