Sunday, June 18
do i ever cross your mind in time.
i miss you.

my blog is infested with crap like that as mentioned above
i'm sorry i cant help it.
this is my only avenue.
at least i did'nt go home crying.
until i got home, i guess that's when everything starts sinking in real deep.
right?
i was trying my best, to be really strong
with him, on our way there, to send him off..
but then again its only 5 days, till i see him.
why i'm making such a big hoo-ha over it.
this is what happens when you lose independence
and become dependent on someone else.
And that, SUCKS.
at least, i could try to get used to things
i cant promise you it'll be easy.
but it will take time.
suddenly from seeing each other 365days a year
down to every 5 days,
its like..
*BAMM.
reality right smack in my face.
its as if, a part of my life has changed drastically
and in this desperate situation,
i require desperate measures.
so far, i have not managed to consult God,
or at least found the courage to go to church today.
i think it might help, put my mind off things for the week
by hook or by crook,
i need to get over all this changes by 10th July.
Before school starts.
And i'll have to go in full force and study study study.
when school starts, i only have 5 weeks till my semestral Exams.
that's creepy, i mean come on, time has passed so fast.
its been only 2 months since school re-opened.
and in 8 more weeks, its exams. and then BAMM, its the holidays and Second Semester of Year 2. I cant wait for 2nd Sem, coz there's Pyschology and Sociology.
and also because it means his BMT is finishing as well.
HOPEFULLY, he does'nt have to go overseas or HOPEFULLY he gets posted to a unit which gives him more free time.
but i think by that time,
i'd be so used to things that .......
well lets not go there,
when i'm totally alright with things,
i'll annouce it here.
its like a huge achievement.
it might sound stupid or dumb, whatsoever.
but i seriously DO NOT CARE.

today was Father's Day,
i DO NOT CARE very much either .
((:




impulsively and honestly,
yours truly

9:57 PM

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Tentative 2009 Calendar♥
Mar 23rd: HongKong&Korea with you
Aug 4th: My 21st
USA Trip with Aishah

WishList♥
Class 3 License
Be an ICU nurse
Digital Camera
iPod Nano
Sony Vaio Pink Lappie
Phuket April with You
Taipei Nov 09 with colleagues
HongKong&Korea March 09 with You
Western US Aug 09 with Aishah
Degree in Nursing
Adv. Dip in Critical Care

My Bucket List♥
Be a Critical Care nurse
A Eurotrip
Bungee Jumping
Visit a Volcano
Scuba Dive
Get a tattoo