Monday, February 20
and so it is,
she was right,
its no wonder,
why, i was ever so affected by you
so affected by your absence
she was right
you'd come
oh yes you would
only when you needed help
besides that
learning to elicit you from my life
is as easy as learning 50 languages.
so,
it was'nt as easy.
i still think about you
and i do,
i apologize, for not turning back that day
i am oh so sorry
i did'nt go running back to you
but i'm gonna put it all behind
for this very last time.
for certain individuals
who are'nt worth the struggle
are'nt worth the tears
even one bit of concern
it would'nt move you
your heart
its molten
its hardened
the ones you love
may be for many
but deep down
i know, there's your weakness
you're just lying
to yourself, and to them
but then again
i don't have much say..
do i ?
and so i'll say,
for the final
and for the very last time
for all that was shed for you
over the year and the months
together with the cruel days
as much as i hate to say this...
i'm done with my one, very last cry..



impulsively and honestly,
yours truly

12:03 AM

-------

Tentative 2009 Calendar♥
Mar 23rd: HongKong&Korea with you
Aug 4th: My 21st
USA Trip with Aishah

WishList♥
Class 3 License
Be an ICU nurse
Digital Camera
iPod Nano
Sony Vaio Pink Lappie
Phuket April with You
Taipei Nov 09 with colleagues
HongKong&Korea March 09 with You
Western US Aug 09 with Aishah
Degree in Nursing
Adv. Dip in Critical Care

My Bucket List♥
Be a Critical Care nurse
A Eurotrip
Bungee Jumping
Visit a Volcano
Scuba Dive
Get a tattoo