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Monday, February 20

this is one random entry.
its going to be long, so those reading have been forwarned. but i contains, what i deem as meaningful, to me.

that day, at the convention centre, while doing the JAE and Open House, i had my share of criticism from people.. some of them go..nursing 28 points also can go in..wow, and at that, i felt a part of me, just shattered a little. i seriously felt like giving them a piece of my mind, but i was in uniform and yes, our lecturers were there. so, like a semi-sedated patient, i stood there and cursed them under my breath.

so this entry would be about why i joined nursing.
firstly.. i had always wanted to be one, since i was 15. okay, maybe 13. when i was admitted in sec 1, in NUH. i saw the nurses, and i told myself, one day, i'd wanna be like her. so, here came my results. i did'nt do badly for my O s, i had 16 points so i don't see why, those people would say only those who cannot make it would join nursing. like hello, i have 8, 6, 9 pointer friends, and they love nursing. so please, watch what you say. and also, its easy to get in, because..nursing is a prioritized course by MOE, as long as u put it your first choice, you indicate a passion and interest, so you'll get it. of course you have to pass maths and science and english at least D7..that's e standard poly grades.
and so, i'm loving every bit of nursing. its rewarding, even at this stage. i've had my share of tears and laughters with patients.
i'll always remember these 2 patients. both whom had affected me greatly. talking about them makes me tear.
first patient. patient A
i seriously could'nt remember her diagnosis
and i was'nt in charge of that cubicle.
i had only attended to her for the call bell..
and so one day, i attended to her call-bell..
and she was so frail, she looked so ill, and all she wanted was some water..and so, i fed her water. she was grateful, very grateful. the best thing about being a nurse, is the smile you get, everyday for helping them.
and so, everyday, i visited her, talked to her..gave her water even tho she did'nt ask for it. i never knew i was so attached to her, till one day when i reported for duty, i saw her, on the oxygen mask. she was hyperventilating, i continued to watch on..and started feeling worried. hours later, doctors and staff nurses were rushing to her, with the emergency cart. P.S : when you see the E-Cart, it is NOT a very good sign...her condition was deteoriating, i could hear, each effort she made just to breathe. its really sad. to see someone whom you're so fond of, to suffer like that. i can still remember, the desperate breathing sounds she'd make. and in my heart, i did'nt wish she would go, and as soon as i knew it, she was rushed to ICU..i could'nt work that day..i had wanted to visit her in the ICU, but i thought i had better get a grip, i did'nt want to burst out crying. till now, i dont know if she's alive or resting peacefully, but she was amazing, the feeling just caring for her, it was undescribable.

Patient B
suffered from Diabetes. had cellulitis
i'd talk to her, do her dressings, bathing
even when she had to change her diapers, the other nurses would'nt do it, because the stench was unbearable for them, i did it with my friend. i literally was like her personal nurse. till one day, she was discharged to a community hospital. i had wanted to say my last goodbye, so i ran to the lifts outside the ward..told her, in chinese, auntie, bye bye, you must take care of yourself okay? and the worst thing happened..
when i said that, she started crying..i kept telling myself(auntie please please don't cry..please!!). and she said tearfully, thank you for taking care of me, sorry for troubling you so much, next time when i'm better i'll come back and see you. and i said, auntie you are already better already why you want to come back??..and by then i was tearing..it was really sad..and after i said that, she started crying more!! and i started crying more!!! it was so dramatic, literally. thank god for naomi, whose shoulders i had cried on after she left..

so, that is the 2 incidents, which made a very great impact on me. many people had discouraged me, to join nursing, including my parents. but it was tough, going against everyone..including deepan, and i was mocked at for taking nursing by everyone. And so i am, here, after a year, in Ngee Ann Nursing.. i'm loving it more than ever. its truly rewarding and at the end of the day, you feel satisfied with life. my advice to those thinking of taking nursing, would be that, to think wisely. it is not glamourous, yes it is tough, you have to be emotionally resillient(i'm working on that), it pays you well, but if you're joining nursing because you think its easy and because of the pay and uniform..please do not, nursing, takes alot of passion, because if you do not have it..you'd just burnout, halfway working, you won't love what you're doing and it is very important to love it. neither is it easy to pass your modules, as far as i know,in ngee ann, its intensive and even 8 pointers do struggle with the modules. but with attention in class and regular revision, you'd pass.
and so i stop here,
i think anyone reading this
cn see how much i'm loving my job
so if you're thinking of dissing nursing
i'll be so damn pissed.
lol

and oh yeah..
nurses do have a life ok
as far as i know,
most of the nurses that i know of
are quite happening and cool..
LOL

impulsively and honestly,
yours truly

11:58 PM

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