Lepidotera Princesse

Saturday, January 7

you and me,
it dose'nt seem to be
right or superb,
deep down, we both know
i know deep down in you too,
you know,
there's somethin about us
we're just not meant to be
together this way..
arguing each day.
enough said for the times,
you'd ignore me
when i would'nt give
i was'nt selfish
but sometimes, i'd ponder
and realize, its something
not worth any bit of a dime
but you always fail to understand
that this is'nt how it should be planned
that if love to you, would be like this,
then i'd say i'm sorry,
i'd cry a hundred tears for that fallen wish
i'd tell you i can't keep us going anymore
because, if i do,
i'd be making a mistake,
the unforgivable mistake,
that would make my soul break.

and the other you and me, we're a world's apart, i'd look to the firmament wishing, how i could turn back time, back to where we were happier, i suppose we were, without a doubt,i knew i was happier..what's wrong with being selfish, when love's all i have to give. i did'nt want us to turn out like this, it was all a misunderstanding . i was irrationale, admitting to my faults, i was merely imperfect. i did'nt let you in, i had shut the door. i had been the one, who could comprehend you, what others would consider absurd. you were the only one, who could understand me . you were all the love i need, moments then, i had considered myself special, coz i had you. but then i had lied, that i did'nt love you anymore, because i was afraid to hurt, because i was afraid you might hurt too. then i had lied, u did'nt mean anything to me,

but it was then i had realized after your presence had diminished into another, i could'nt take what was all coming to me. for the first time in my life, i had felt true love. the love which would forever be irreplaceble, and unique till infinity. at each daylight arising, i'd overwhelm myself with you and wonder, dreaming of living the impossible dream. because i know, right now, everything would be all to late, to you it'd be passe. i say i'm happy and that i'm doing fine, but reaching furthur in, i am falling day by day, paying the price of that one simple mistake. truth is, i never got over you. one wish, i would make was that i could hear the sound of your voice, soothing to the ears, it used to keep me at peace, now all i can give,are saddened red eyes, coz its been too long and i'm lost without you, i'd wonder if you still have it for me,

because, right now, i am crying right out for you but you will never know that i do, i have always been around since then, but you never acknowledged my presence because i know you don't care and that you've got another life and that you need to concentrate..you will never know how i think about you, you will never know how i miss all the times with you, you will never know how much i write to you, you will never know how much i cry for you, you will never know how much i want to be with you, but i think you know, i'd always keep you there, in that deserving place, you may never come back from that life but i'd always be missing you.

you come on like special k

impulsively and honestly,
yours truly

11:07 PM

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